So, what is my theme for 2011? Glad you asked!
I thought about it in the month of December and came up with one that I like:
"Facing Forty Through Love and Literature."
It covers all the bases for what I hope to achieve this year: finding my lady love and a literary agent, as well as writing my next novel (and possibly two). With the job search over, I am free to focus on the next big item on my goal sheet: finding a wife. I will be renewing my Match.com account so I can respond to the ads of about ten ladies whose profiles I really like. That's just for starters in the first quarter of the year.
For a visual image of the type I'm looking for, I actually found one through a Google image search:
I love the glasses and the scarf, but most importantly, she's reading a book! How's that for a great image to keep in mind as I begin my search? A woman reading a book, which covers the two points of my theme.
Also this year, I will create another Vision Board, even though last year's images haven't really come true. It doesn't mean that the concept does not work, because I have not really focused my attention on the images as much as I should have. It is nice to look at, though. I feel inspired whenever I take a glance at it for a minute or two. The images reflect how my dream life would look like, which includes a loft condo in the Pearl District, a Scion tC, a golden retriever, a published novel, a trip to Sydney, and piles of money.
According to numerology, I am now in a Personal Year 1 of another 9-year cycle. This means I have to be very mindful of the kind of experiences I hope to have in the next decade. I have to plant the seeds of what will start appearing throughout the next nine years, with the ultimate fruition coming about in Years 8 and 9. Since I seem to do better when I am only focusing on a few things at a time, I have limited my focus to love and literature. I want a literary year this year. This will include submitting my Navy novel to literary agents, starting work on my next novel (think Lord of the Flies meets Jeffrey Dahmer), and reading great literature (such as To Kill a Mockingbird and The Grapes of Wrath, two re-readings of books I read in high school). Hopefully, I can just ignore the political noise that will inevitably crop up throughout the year. I have to keep focused on my two most important desires this year: lady love and literary aspirations.
By the end of the year, I hope I can celebrate the successful achievement of making the theme come true. I'm already going to plan an end of year vacation at the Luxor Hotel and Casino in Las Vegas. I'm inviting any of my friends who would like to spend the New Year's Eve weekend with me. I want to do something special for my 40th birthday and the only gift I will accept this year is the presence of my friends in Las Vegas that weekend. Come on, it'll be a rather inexpensive vacation. If I am successful in the achievements of my three main goals this year, that means you will get to meet my lady love or fiancee, I will have landed a literary agent with my first novel sold to a publisher, and the second novel is being shopped around to publishing houses.
Another side project of mine this year will be the writing of three volumes of my autobiography in special blankbooks I have. I've been meaning to write the first two volumes, but never made time to do that. I think this year, my Sundays will include writing a few pages of experiences into my autobiography blank books. Volume I is called Ambition Over Adversity and covers the first eighteen years of life; Volume II is called Disillusionment and Determination and covers the 1990s (my 20s); and Volume III is called Passion or Pragmatism, covering the 2000s (my 30s). Hopefully, by year's end, this project will also be fully completed.
I'm excited about this year. I must admit, a lot of my happiness and excitement about this past Christmas and New Year's is that I feel like a burden had been lifted from me last year. My biggest fear when I graduated high school twenty years ago was that I would be stuck in a job I hated for the rest of my life. I really feared that fate had come true and that I would never be able to escape it. That I am in a new company that is a better fit for my experiences and interests, I feel like a new world has opened up for me. I survived hell and lived to tell about it. Now, I can focus on other things for the first time in four years. I am ready for a serious romantic relationship now. I think I've done enough "soul work" over the past decade that there is a lady in the city of Portland wanting to meet a guy like me. We have to find each other this year (if we haven't already met).
Also on my blog, you will not read any more posts about my lament over leaving Washington, D.C. in July 2000. I consider that to be the worst decision I had ever made, but maybe it wasn't. The journey I've been on in the past ten years as well as all the people I've met have added value to my life and experience. The worst decision, obviously, was accepting the first job offer when I arrived in Portland. It led me to the worst place I've ever worked and pushed me into the some of the darkest days of my life. With the new 9 year cycle and the official start of a new decade, I am deciding to keep my focus on the next decade and close the chapter on the last one. I really believe I am a much better person now than I was ten years ago. Here's to an awesome decade!